I have been overweight for eight years. EIGHT years. I cannot believe that I have let myself go for THAT long. But yet I find that I am hard on myself as if this has all happened within the past year. I find myself comparing my body to the body I had when I was 16 years old. Let’s be realistic, none of us will ever look like we did when we were 16 and that’s OK. Our bodies have grown along with us and experienced things that our 16 year old body would never understand such as children and surgeries and weight gain. And although our body may not look as good as it used to, it sure is strong! Could my 16 year old body handle a 120 lb weight gain? No way! But can this current body handle it? This body that I spend every day criticizing? I really should be thanking my body rather than putting it down. I mean, how I would feel if I had to carry all this extra weight all the time and without a forewarning? So this is to our bodies, the bodies that have not given up on us and supported us (literally) no matter what we put it through. And now it is time to do something back for them. It is time to give our bodies a break and allow them to not have to work as hard, I am not losing weight for my confidence and my health, I am losing weight for myself as a whole.
This leads me to my next subject. What if I don’t like myself after I lose the weight? What if once I lose the weight, I don’t feel like “myself”. What if I don’t find myself attractive or as attractive as I was as a teenager. We all like to think that once we are thin, we’ll be happy but that is not completely realistic. Losing weight is a scary thing and so is the unknown. But if I can find a way to love myself for who I am right now, then there will be no problem in loving myself when I am 120 lbs lighter. I have decided to start doing some exercises to help me appreciate the person I am today.
1. Every morning I am going to compliment myself in the mirror. If I start my day off on a positive note, it will help me to keep a positive attitude for the rest of the day. And if I tell myself things often enough, it will become a natural thought.
2. Every time I start to feel down about the way I look, I am going to say to myself “I love you just the way you are”.
3. I am going to forgive myself. I am going to forgive myself for the food that I have allowed to harm my body and for the negative thoughts I have allowed myself to think about myself. If I can forgive myself, then I can begin to heal.
Do you have any exercises you do to help you to love yourself?